I feel like the term/description “artist” is thrown around quite a lot, especially now with social media platforms like Instagram, where you can share your artwork in an instant. It makes me feel uncomfortable because anyone can just put “I’m an artist” in their about me/profile and that’s that. Instantly – they’re an aaaaartist. Although some people do, I’ve never been able to openly say or consider myself to be an artist. A. I don’t feel like I’ve produced enough work, B. I haven’t studied, C. I haven’t sold a lot of my work or had it in galleries, D. Maybe I’m just too shy/modest to consider myself to be something so authoritative. Because, let’s face it, being able to call yourself an artist means you are an expert in your field, an authority on what you do. And I am definitely not that. I’m just a girl who loves to create.
I’m also struggling with my illustrative “voice” right now. What do I want to say with my illustrations? What stories am I telling? Explaining why I’ve created/like things has always been a downfall of mine, and I feel it’s probably the main thing that is holding me back from diving in to the world of freelance illustration/design, and what’s stopping me having more of an audience. Maybe I need to work on cultivating my voice (*gag* that sounds so cheesy) more and finding a bit of meaning in my work. The hard part is figuring out how, I guess!