Self Portraits & Blog Direction

I’ve taken self portraits ever since I got in to photography at 16. Setting up my £5 tripod from Tesco (which only got replaced last Christmas!!??), adjusting the self timer and focus and sitting by myself in front of the camera. They were always emotion-based; I’ve always found it easier to get across how I’m feeling in photo or art form over talking or writing, and always felt a bit better after taking a bunch of photos. Some of them I’d put online, and others I’d keep for myself, worried that others would think I was weird.

(Around 2010)
Blogging changed how I approached self portraiture – it wasn’t about figuring out who I was or how I was feeling anymore, it was about the clothes I was wearing. I’ve never really been happy with any of the outfit-based self portraits I’ve taken. They all just seem to be missing something, and I couldn’t shake the feeling that I was just being narcissistic, which a lot of other fashion/style bloggers have struggled with and written about in the past. Most of the self portraits I’ve taken (apart from whats on this blog) have been thrown away or deleted over the years, either accidentally or otherwise, and as soon as I got in to a serious relationship I just kind of stopped taking them… but I’d really like to start again.

(Last week)
This blog has taken its twists and turns and changed over the years, and right now I can see it moving in a different direction – less of the style/fashion based posts and more about my photography and art work. I do still love playing with my personal style, and I’m sure it will probably still be apparent in my future posts, but there will be less of a sole focus on it. Basically I want this blog to be like an open journal. I have toyed with perhaps just starting a new blog, or opening *yet another* instagram account dedicated to photo journals/self portraiture – but I already have trouble keeping up with the 25685976 accounts I already manage for myself and other businesses, lol.


(around 2011)
So, what you’ve been seeing and reading since the end of July will give you a rough idea of how its going to be from now on: Photo journals, self portraits, shoots, pages from my sketchbook and art pieces & processes (& maybe still the occasional outfit if I feel like it *wink*). I still worry, just as I did before, that certain people might think I’m weird, as there will be things that people won’t have seen me make and show before, but this is my *art* man! Hahah

I’m also working with Harry on a new portfolio & blog situation. It will be self hosted and no longer on wordpress.com, but its a little way off as yet…

Anyway! I’m really sorry if you’ve been following along for my personal style posts or beauty posts… but if you are in to photography and illustration/art, then I hope you’ll stick around! ♡

Advertisements

Current Wardrobe Situation & Moodboard

And it really is a situation. I don’t have room for an actual wardrobe in my apartment, so I currently have a rail in our bedroom:


(not the most glamorous photos, I know…but lets be real)

To the left of the cubby hole thing is Harrys smarter clothing (i.e. shirts, trousers, ties), and then everything else is mine. These are ALL of my clothes. Apart from winter coats and what I’m selling/ need to take to charity, which is a pretty large chunk waiting in a suitcase in the shed for me to get my butt in gear and take it!

Basically – I’m bored of my wardrobe. I’d say three quarters of it I’ve had for 3 years or more, and while I do wear most of it, perhaps I need to have a real look of some of the more worn-out pieces… I am emotionally attached to a small number of things that I should really recycle. I sold a lot of my vintage clothing over the past couple of years, so most of it is “new” – but I’m not CRAZY IN LOVE with any of it! I work from home, so I went through a stage of “wow, I never wear any of this any more SELL IT!”, and I’m not exactly regretting it, because in my head my style has changed, but I do feel like that certain interest is missing now.

I don’t really know where I’m going with this… do I want to make a loose capsule wardrobe with a few good quality vintage pieces?  Do I start being more disciplined with recycling/selling/charity-ing something when I buy something new (a long way of saying one in one out)? Should I just chill out??!! (probably)

On the other hand, I definitely know that I want to support local businesses and makers more, wear more GOOD QUALITY vintage again (this is seemingly a hard thing to do in the UK – take me back to Laura Dols in Amsterdam!), not stick to a specific era, but just have a certain vibe going on, and buy things less often, but invest in pieces that will last me a long time.


Clockwise from top left: 12345 (images are also on my Pinterest)

I guess the above is what I mean by “vibe” – chore jackets, linen, vintage jeans, wide leg trousers and cotton lace. Ooh and I reeeaallly want a straw hat that fits me this spring/summer. I watched one of Kitty Cotten’s youtube videos where she spoke about an adjustable fitting straw hat. THATS WHAT I NEEED! If anyone knows where I can get something like that in the UK – pleeeease tell me!

Lick of Life: April

I didn’t bring my camera out in April. Nor have I been feeling that great. Buuuut I really want to step up my game, so my aim for May is to bring my camera out with me EVERYWHERE. Even if I’m just going food shopping. You never know when you’ll see a cute puppy or something, right??
I might also do a lil vloggie because I’m off to Brighton to see Kishi Bashi on the 15th!

SO the following is mostly a bunch of phone camera shots of what I got up to in April – I apologise (Mainly to myself).









A Lick of Life: March

It’s a late one this month! I’ve had no internet access for most of the month, so doing anything (you know, blogging… WORK!) has been nigh on impossible. Fingers crossed our new provider can get us back online tomorrow. It’s also been a pretty packed, stressful month for me, so photos haven’t really been first on my agenda, oops!



I had my hair coloured professionally in March… lets just say it didn’t go well. This was the first attempt. After one wash I was left with cartoonish yellow-blonde hair. Every time I caught myself in the mirror I let out an “eep!” sort of sound, but ended up just trying to repeat my mantra “It’s okay; David Bowie Vibes”. I went again just over a week later and its a bit better/darker, but fading fast!

This is the only lipstick I’ve been wearing all month. Urban Decay Comfort Matte in ‘Carnal’ – apparently its super close to the sold out Nars limited edition lipstick in ‘Kiss Me Stupid’, and I’m finding it really suits red hair!



It was this one’s birthday! Aaaand, he bought himself his first car! He is now the super proud owner of a shiny gold Mini One – and I’m in looooove with it. It’s gold – of course I’m in love with it.

Harry took around 200 photos to get this one. I need to get better at having my photo taken.

Lets hope April is full of better, warmer days for everyone! Did anyone else have a full on March??

Nosing Around

My nose. My nose has always been an issue for me, sometimes moreso than others. At times of zero self confidence, my nose gets the brunt of most of my upset. Growing up, racist slurs were very casually thrown in my direction because of the shape of it in profile, and how “large” it is. It’s funny what a group of teens can do to your confidence. Even though it was seen negatively by most people around me, including me when I wasn’t gawping at pictures of Erin O’Connor (hah!), I’ve never wanted a nose job. I’ve never REALLY wanted to change it.

I realised, in re-reading Suzanne Von Aichingers part in Dita Von Teeses book ‘Your Beauty Mark’, that I hadn’t thought about it in a little while – positively or negatively. She talks about liking cats with big noses, her idols always having strong, interesting features, and I have always been drawn to that too. Perhaps it’s been my subconscious screaming at me to love my nose this whole time! Harry tells me he loves my nose when I haven’t got my glasses on (basically only just before bed and first thing in the morning, because I’m as blind as a mole!) and am feeling a little self concious, and honestly, I think I’m growing to love it, too. It’s a bit late to still be coming to terms with various body issues at the age of 26, I know, but I’m working on it.

I’m thankful for beautiful women with strong features like Erin O’Connor & Suzanne Von Aichinger. I probably would have gone mad at school if it weren’t for looking at pictures of them and realising that having “different” features is NOT a bad thing. In fact, it can be a beautiful thing.
(photo of me from 5 or 6 years ago)